the good in our hearts

So today our priest told us we had homework. He said he wanted us to go home and pray before we went to bed for at the very least five minutes about the ways in which our hearts were good. The ways that God saw our hearts to be good. He talked about how the first thing we do when we wake up in the morning and look in the mirror is start to defeat ourselves or tear ourselves down. We look at the things that are wrong with our outside and focus on the things that people will see our clothes, hair, make up etc. and we put our energy into making those things look good or better! How much energy do we spend on our hearts!? He went on to talk about more.. but for the life of me I can't remember anything else, I was stuck on how well do I take care of my heart? And do I really realize the good in it!? I think I do a great job at seeing the good in other peoples hearts. And I don't mean that in a arrogant way. I just feel like I see past everything else, most of the time, and look at someone for their heart... I think that's why I can get along with people who we have very different opinions in life, faith, politics, sex, etc. I don't see those things when I look at someone, I see who they are, and their heart! I am more concerned with getting to know their heart and pushing past the other stuff. So if I were to ask myself what is good in my heart, that would be my first answer. I think I struggle to see the good in my heart most of the time, but when I think about it, the seeing good in others hearts, is a good in mine! (if that makes sense?) Anyway it got me thinking about the people in my life that I love so much, even with all of our differences, and how broken most of our hearts are, which, is part of why we can't see the good. It made me wish again that I could help some of the people in my life see their heart in a different way, or see it at all. And it reminded me of why I titled my blog "A space for my heart..." because that is what I am working on healing and sharing and hoping to find I can connect with more and more, as well as connecting with others!
So the good in my heart.... well I hope that it shows, even on the days where the rest of me, doesn't look like I tried much! ;)
The good in my heart is reaching out to the good in yours!

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